A poem to our friendly apartment ghost.
Dear Harriet:
Jubilee House resident ghost
Koinonia Farms
1329 GA Highway 49 South
Americus, Georgia 31719
I’m sorry
That we forget to leave the door open for you.
I’m sorry
That you have to hide,
Crammed in dusty boxes and under tables,
Waiting for us to leave or sleep
So that you can move free
Because we are not ready
To see your ghostly shape,
Even though we say we wish to.
I’m sorry we’ve taken over your home,
Acting like we own the floors and ceilings,
And that the stories echoing through these walls
Are ours and that we made them –
We forget that our eyes cannot hold
The complexity of the world’s shapes
And that the trees
Reach both taller and deeper
Than our own souls and bodies
And into places we can never even hope to see.
I’m sorry
We act as if you were never like us –
Like you never felt hard sun
Beating down on your naked back,
Like you never tasted the love
Inside of freshly picked fruit,
Like you’ve never known the hurt
Of losing someone close;
You even know the hurt of losing yourself –
Of feeling matter whoosh from around your spine
And dissipate as floating dust,
Watching all substance leave you
With a lightness you did not want
Or see coming.
We do not know how you went –
Maybe with warmth and friends,
Maybe quiet and alone,
Maybe you were scared
Or maybe ready.
Maybe you did not have time to be either.
Were you old?
Did you get to do everything you wanted?
Was time enough for you?
When you walk here,
Are you anxious? Nostalgic? Reminiscing? Unfinished?
Was the light at the end of that dreaded tunnel
Soft and welcoming
Or harsh and bright?
Did you stare into it or squeeze your eyes shut?
Was it there at all?
It is not fair for us to pretend
That we know what it felt like
To move through planes of existence,
To feel the chill and loss.
It is not fair for us
To pretend like you do not know life
And understand us;
We let our fear push and hinder,
Unknown and questioning;
We hide our faces
And cover our ears from the knowledge
That one day,
We will walk with you.
-Lauren Wilkie
Love it Lauren! Have fun!